This post was just a hoax. trying to push him outta his shell and maybe
make him mad. I am not looking 4 or having any man over just so people
know...
Things don't always go as planned and when it all falls apart, we are forced to find different ways to cope with the situation. This is my way of dealing with my broken heart. IF you don't like it, Don't read it. Thanks, ~Jesilyn~
Monday, March 18, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Day 16 (Sent thru Facebook)
From Me:
Keith,
Ellie brought me your keys. I prayed you kept them for a reason, that
you kept them so that you could come home again. All I can do is cry.
Why can't you see what your doing? Why can't you open your eyes and
simply talk to me? Why... Keith I haven't don't anything wrong. I
worship you. You are all I want; all I need.
Yes
I know that I had the thing with Stacy, but that ended in September
and I don't want anyone else. All I want is you. Like I said before I
keep getting offers and I keep my ass at home. I lay holding your
pillow. crying begging god to send you home or take me away so I
don't have to live without you. I don't want to live like this. I
want you. and I don't understand why you won't talk to me.
Thats
what started all this. You wouldn't communicate. IF you had only been
honest. told me the truth. we wouldnt be going through this. I
wouldn't have went. I swear I wouldn't have went. If you would have
wrapped your arms around me and said u loved me. I wouldn't have
went. I know I shouldn't have listened to your words and that I
should have followed my heart but I thought it was what you wanted.
Now I just want to die. I feel like my life is over and you wouldn't
be doing this IF you would just see what I'm going thru without you
Keith
you are not this cold. I know you. You are a loving carring man. Your
a man with a conscious. Your a man with a dream. I once forfilled
that dream. We were happy. We can be again and it can last forever.
Thats all I want. I want to live my life making you happy. But I
never had a chance. You never told me what I was doing wrong. It's
like you set me up to fail. I don't believe that you are that type of
person. Thats why I keep waiting hoping praying and trying to fix
things.
Keith
I am fighting for you. I am doing what you never did. I haven't given
up on you. It takes all my strength to get up in the morning. To
clean the house, to eat, to go out job hunting. I'm trying Keith. I'm
trying so hard. I just want to prove to you and Ill kill myself to do
that. I don't care how tired I am, how swollen my eyes are from
crying, how much I puke, how bad I shake and cry. I need you to see
how much you mean to me. I need you to KNOW the truth. I need you to
think about it. I need you to talk to me. Please keith talk to me.
just write me here. you don't have to move back in immediately. We
can take it slow. I just need you in my life. I feel like Im
smothering. I feel like Im dying slowly that my heart is being cut
out piece by piece and only you can stop the pain. Please keith...
please stop the pain. Please help make me whole again.....
Keith Dougherty wrote back: "Am
not coming back I dont want be with you"
From Me: "Keith
I know your hurt and angry. I know that. I hate myself 4 that. But I
don't believe that you feel nothing. You are not that cold."
Keith Dougherty wrote back: "I
dont love you move on I did"
From Me: "Im
trying to get a job. I'm trying to make money. I know that was a
problem. I'm not eating. I know u told someone that was a
problem So I'm trying to loose weight I
dont believe that. I think u try to make yourself believe that What
did I do so wrong?I
gave u what you wanted Please
talk to me
Keith
I have NEVER loved someone so much that I couldn't "move on"
as u call it. I've always ran out and found someone else. I just
can't I don't want anyone else
Im
not trying to force u to come back right now. I'm asking you to
please talk to me. Give me a chance. Take your time. But talk. take
the time to do something u havent done in several years...
talk to me. one subject at a time. Come on keithie... Just talk to me. I think your afraid that if u do that you will find your feelings again and u are so set on not doing that."
talk to me. one subject at a time. Come on keithie... Just talk to me. I think your afraid that if u do that you will find your feelings again and u are so set on not doing that."
Keith Dougherty wrote back "Lol
there nothing there get over your self"
From Me: "Get
over myself".... I'm not about myself. My heart is about you.
What part of that don't u understand?"
Keith Dougherty "I
dont want you you need to get over it by"
From Me: "I
believe there IS something there or else it wouldn't bother u to talk
to me. You wouldnt have slipped away and used text to tell me u
werent coming home. I think you did it that way cause u knew Id do
everything to try to convience u to stay"
I'm
never going to get "over" you with so much left unsaid.
with so many questions left unanswered. I'm never going to forget how
much I love you. I'm not. I'm not like that. I can't just shut off my
emotions. and I wouldn't want to. Id rather die than forget how much
I love you. My feelings are REAL.
I
want to know why. I need to know details. I need to know what I did
so wrong
Would
u at least write me a letter and tell me why. just spill ur guts and
let me have it all. tell me why. tell me everything u think....
please..........
Keith Dougherty "Am
happy with out you that all am saying to you good bye"
From Me: " Keith
I deserve to know why. can u at least be a man and tell me all the
reasons why"
Fine
Keith.... I guess you really are the cold hearted ass everyone says
you are... I don't want to believe that I mean... I thought u were
different but I guess I don't know u at all anymore. The only thing I
do know is myself & I know I love u & that U can't say I
didn't try. I've tried. I tried everything I know how including
begging u and ur cyber sluts to stop this... It got me no where. And
since u won't be honest and tell me the truth... I will always
believe that you don't have a good reason for doing this ... so wtf
ever.
u
have ur fun w/ ur cyber sluts and when u see the big truck or harley
in our front yard you can blame yourself
(I've
decided to take a chance and try dating. The guy I am considering is
independent and cares about others. He owns 2 big trucks, 2
properties, and a harley. Unlike you... he is a gentleman. he isn't
wanting to get laid. he wants to get to know me and he is talking
about giving me a job as his secretary that way I can pay off this
house and take care of the kids...
I
swear... I think it's fucked up that complete strangers care more
about the kids and our grandkids than the man they have called
Dad/Pappy for 7 years......
Oh
well... I know I don't deserve this. I know that I'm better than any
of those 2 bit whores u are seeing. (I know of 2 so far that u've
went to see... Moundsville blond bimbo and the sardis lady that u
went to her work and weird-ed her out) I also know that when they
realize how addicted to cyber porn you are they won't stay either and
karma will finally provide justice for what you did to me and the
kids.
By
then hopefully it will be too late & I won't care because I'm
tired of hurting. I'm tired of being your excuse when you are the one
to blame. I didn't do anything to you to deserve what you are doing
to me and the kids. Matter a fact... I would have done anything 4
u... but u couldn't stay away from the cam sluts... I mean jez I may
be a lil heavy but those women are butt ass ugly!
Anyway...
have a good life. I don't wish u harm because I know I still love u
and that u matter to me; even if u enjoy tearing my heart out and
hurting my kids.... Just wish I would have left before I fell for you
then this would have never happen...
~Always,
Jesilyn~
P.S.
1st off ... PLEASE change your address.... I have already told
welfare that u moved out. I got a letter in "my name" today
that told me that ur foodstamps end this month... (I'm returning your
mail to sender)
2nd...
since u no longer live here I ask that you DO NOT come to my house
when I am gone. The way I see it, IF you can't be a man and come
while I'm here u don't need to come at all. IF you come in my house
w/out MY permission I will call the police.
3rd.
stay away from my kids/grandkids. You obviously didn't care enough
about them to make sure they would be ok if u left so you damn sure
don't deserve the title Dad or Pappy. The older kids may not care but
poor little aden does and him seeing u at the store has kept him
crying. It's not fair to him so just leave him alone ok...
I
mean seriously....Real men don't do this to kids... Then again...
real mean don't run out on their families at all.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Day 14- Keith's Meetme status
Keith's
new meetme status is that "I'm F'n Nuts" and that he reported me to the
site... really? Well he is the one who they need warned about and I did
just that last night...I wrote every woman on his list and WARNED THEM.
I posted the cyber slut convo and provided proof as to who & what
he is.... Now he is pissed. well TOO BAD! You wanted me to "move on"
baby you got it! Don't even try to change things now. I spoke to a few
of your women and now I know exactly what you are doing. After that I
decided that I am better than that so have fun & we will see who
ends up w/ the better life!
Day 14- To keiths Cyber Women
I posted this notice on Meetme.com
I noticed that you are a meetme friend of Keith Daugherty/Master D &
with the most sincere intentions I felt the need to write to you.
You see… Keith Daugherty/ Master D and I met on the Internet site
Adultspace. We were together almost 7 years. When I first got here to
Woodsfield, I never wanted to marry again. I was terrified of a new
relationship. But Keith was more than dedicated to proving he was
different than anyone else. Well... after 2-3 yrs of his begging, he
broke down my walls and got me to divorce my previous husband (after
a 10 yr separation) and start planning a wedding. Sure we had our
problems but everyone does. Most of these problems were caused by the
lack of communication. He doesn’t like to “talk” about things
when something is wrong (He runs).
Over those 7 years, I accepted his desire to "play" online.
Keith likes his pictures of naked girls and usually wont talk to
females that don't send the pics. Hell I even saved those pics to
folders for him. I didn't mind. For that matter we had an open
relationship. The idea was that people in general have different
desires and sometimes those desires don't coincide. IF the
relationship was open we could get those needs met w/out upsetting
the other person. (For instance Keith DON'T do oral play and I like
that.... so with an open relationship… we could seek outside the
box)....
He wanted pictures, and to cam, and to talk sexual. Well. I ended up
meeting a guy on meetme and had a short-lived sexual adventure. I had
NO intentions of leaving Keith. I loved him. But when the "situation"
ended... Keith decided to use it as an excuse. He left for 24 hrs.
Came back. Left again for 5 days. Came back. Was back for a lil over
4 months and on Feb 28th he left again. This time he left myself my 2
teen daughters and out 4 grand kids with NO food, No car, no money
nothing. He didn't care if we lost everything and now I'm stuck
picking up the pieces.
The sad part is… All I want is 4 him to come home and end the pain
that our family is feeling. He won't even talk to me. I don’t
understand him anymore & Everyone we know tells me he’s a SOB,
talks about him, and tries to tell me to move on. Quite frankly I'm
not like him. I can't just forget someone I truly love. So my
message here is....
IF you think you are special YOUR NOT!. He is NOT ever going to quit
playing games. He is addicted to porn and meeting new women… He has
3 meetme accounts one of wich he just made earlier this morning. He
is looking for naked pics and cam girls. he wont give those things
up. PERIOD. It's a what ever he can get situation. IF you are that
type of woman... well I suppose u can have it. I offered him
stability, love, and what ever he wanted and look what I got.
You may think I’m being bitter, but really… Do you want this to
happen to you? I personally wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy...
so please heed my warning ladies.... he will do you the same way!
Check out his other accounts make friends w/ the other women. Find
out 4 yourself.
Here are his accounts (and its possible that he has others that I
don’t know about):
Like I said Im not trying to be bitter.
I just know how hurt I am and what he has done to my family. I know
what he is doing now. and I know he has already slept w/ one woman
off his list that I couldn't sent the message to.I'm not a horrible
person. I never cheated on him or lied to him. I screwed up by giving
him what he wanted...
So if you'd like a new MM friend. I'm
here. but I'm not going to be on THIS account much longer
Further more, I'm a psychology major.
I'm not a horrible person. I never cheated on him or lied to him. I
screwed up by giving him what he wanted. I'm human and I care about
others. I was not assuming anything. I was simply "warning"
others about him. the rest is up to the women who speak to him.
According to what you say you aren't that type of woman so good 4 u.
I don't play the cam games either and YES I am moving on but I am
making myself known...
Day 15 (Emailed on Facebook)
Two
weeks 1 day... I have tried so hard not to contact you. I've tried to
sit back, watch from a distance, and pretend that I'm ok, but Im not
ok. I'm completely broken...I've tried everything I know to get you
to at least hear me out, to get you to talk to me. You won't...I'm
going steer crazy... it doesn't help that Aden just asked if ur
coming home. Like 1000 times before, I told him no. He said where he
at the store. I said no. he said yes he at the store he bought me
gummy bears. and now he wants to go to the store to see pappy...
Keith
what do I have to do to get you to understand how bad this is hurting
us? That every moment you are gone makes me want to die? I don't want
to live like this. I don't want to sit in our bed and miss you. I
just want you to talk to me; even if it is online. I don't understand
what it would hurt to try... Don't you even think about us? Don't you
miss us?
I
don't understand how u can walk away and not care after almost 7
years...
Monday, March 11, 2013
Day 12- March 11, 2013
I noticed you’ve blocked me on fb and
mm. I noticed you untagged most our pics and deleted your original
Daugherty account on facebook. I noticed you got a new phone, which
means you got a new number. I even noticed that you’ve cut your
hair again. You still look good ; ya know. And when I look at all the
photos it kills me. If only you could understand what you mean to me
and how bad this hurts. I know you say you don’t care anymore, I
know you say you don’t love me anymore. I know you don’t want to
hear from me. But Keith… what about me? What about what I want?
What about my heart? It still loves you! It still needs you! & it
is shattered. It’s like this… Everyday I try to stay busy. I try
to push forward, but you are my only real thought from the moment I
wake thru my dreams and beyond. I just want to shake you and make you
see what you are doing, make you stop and come home.
I know what you have been saying about
me and Keith it’s not true. I was NOT with 3-4 other guys. Yes I
seen Clinton in 2007 when I was trying to figure out what I wanted,
but I chose YOU. After that you were the only man I was with til
Stacy and you knew about the 3 times I seen him. But that was over in
September. There was no one else. I chose you AGAIN. And I don’t
want anyone else.
I keep asking myself what I did and how
I got over all my past heartaches. The answer was I jumped into
another relationship. It use to be so easy to forget. This time it’s
different. I have tons of offers, but no interest in even exploring
the possibilities. I keep dwelling on that. Why, why don’t I just
seek revenge, make a scene with another man. Why can’t I do it? The
answer is easy… I don’t want anyone else. I love you unlike I
have ever loved another person in my life. That is why I can’t bare
to think about doing stupid shit. I keep telling myself that maybe
you do think about coming home and if you do then anything stupid
would change your mind and Id never be able to fix it. I can’t
chance that. I would never be able to live with myself if I did. Do
you understand what I’m saying?
Ya know, at new years I made a promise
to myself to find myself. I wanted to remember who and what I really
am. Today… I’m learning those things. I know that inside I’m a
very hurt person who struggles day to day. I'm learning that I’m
dedicated. I’m learning that when I love something there is nothing
I won’t do. I’m learning just how important you/us is/are to me
and that I don’t want to live life without you. I’m learning to
pick up the pieces again and that this is not what I meant when I
said I wanted to find myself. I never wanted to look down at my heart
and know that you threw it away. I never wanted to feel lost lonely
neglected and broken. All I wanted was to feel loved and appreciated.
I wanted your arms to hold me, your eyes to look at me w/ desire,
your voice to tell me it would be ok. I wanted YOU!
And Keith it’s not too late. We can
fix this. We CAN. I know you told joe you cheated on me. I know I
have a phone around here where you told Cody’s Tasha that if she
sends tit pics u would come around more. I know you been going and
seeing meetme women but I can forgive. I’m hurt but I still love
you. I still want you.
How many ways can I explain myself? How
long do I have to hurt? How long do I have to beg? Do you realize
that I’ve thrown away all my pride just to try to prove to you that
you are the man I want? I have screamed it on every website I can,
all over town, to anyone who will listen and many who didn’t want
to. And I hate when people tell me to “move on” & “start
over”. They don’t know how bad I am hurting or how desperately I
am trying to change your mind. They can’t understand why but I know
why.I know that you are one of the most sensitive loving caring and
dedicated men I have ever met. A man who knows my heart, body, and
soul. A man who was able to break down my walls get me to divorce
john and give up my safty net and start planning a wedding. A man who
was special enough to make me believe in myself, my hopes, and my
dreams again. The man that I want….
Please Keith its been over a week now.
I am in hell emotionally. The kids miss you. The babies miss you.
Aden begs for you. Please come home and end the suffering of our
family.
I love you,
~Jesilyn~
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Day 5-last text from me
ME: I know ur planning to change your number so before you do I have to text u one more time and tell you how much I really do love and how much I miss you and that despite what I am hearing I still want u home. (U dont need to text back I don't expect it anyway)
~Jes
~Jes
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Day 4- Joseph Hays wrote on Jesilyn's Timeline.
holy
shit everyone. this is no lie! i text keith daugherty / keith dougherty
today on his cellphone pretending to b a woman and he admited to
cheating on jess 2 times when the fair was in woodsfield this past year
and fucking sum chick yesterday. jess and her kids and their kids dont
deserve this shit. they will all bend over backwards to help u and this
is the thanks they get. jess u r a great friend and i thank u for that.
and i miss my brothers and sisters. its really messed up that all of u
were treated this way by a so called man. more like a boy i think. im
sorry 4 everything thats happened to u all. i love all u guys and miss u
all. jess if any of them want my number go ahead and give it to them
plz. ill b thinking bout u all. just keep ur head up even though it
hurts. itll all work out in the end. just b patient cuz there is someone
for everyone. haters r gonna hate but the hell with them. u all
deserve better. and idgaff if i piss off anyone with this post. no one
hurts my family and friends
- Joseph Hays likes this.
Jesilyn Montgomery WOW Joe Im still in complete shock... from after u told me what u did.......& I definately didn't think u would post that ...............
- Jesilyn Montgomery It really upsets me that u are probably going to lose ur friend over trying to protect me & the kids.......
- Joseph Hays Well at a point in time i considered him a friend but not anymore. He hurt my friend and family... I dont want people like that in my life...
- Jesilyn Montgomery Im not so shocked about what u left out. he does that w/ all women. but the other thing fucks w/ my head. I mean he made me feel like shit after the situation that I was dealing w/ was over... and acted like it was all my fault, now you tell me he was doing shit behind my back when I was always honest w/ him. even worse Im pretty sure I know who it was.......
Jewel Rebellady Angel U tell it boi!! He's a POS and she deserves so much better!! You aint losing a friend.. Hell you aint losing shit when he treats ppl like that- Joseph Hays i did this all on my own... after i read ur posts i figured id do what i had to do to get the truth... its pretty fckd up that i had to pretend to b a dam woman to get answers..
- Joseph Hays Jess he told me so much shit i honestly forget. he is a pos yes. the mfer shouldve just been honest with u. claiming u cheated on him when in fact it was him that did it to u
- Joseph Hays That is true... im not losing anything at all... its probably a good thing im not in woodsfield anymore either
- Joseph Hays Honestly i hope that he finds out bout this post too... idgaff.. im a man... i only did what i thought was right and wanted to help... who ever gets mad oh well...
- Joseph Hays A REAL MAN is honest and doesnt have to meet fake ass bitches online... u dumb fuck u had a great woman and kids that loved u... u got grand children that want u but ur such a pos that u had to go chase some skank...
- Joseph Hays I feel bad that i was the one who had to get him to tell the dam truth... tell my brothers and sister and nieces and nephews that i love em and miss em... i think he needs to go get his head examined... dumb fuck obviously doesnt know what he HAD!
- Jesilyn Montgomery I want to be angry. I want to want to go off but my heart screams I'd forgive him. Makes me feel really stupid.
- Joseph Hays Im actually surprised a little bit... Whats fucked up is that he was trying to or did, idk tho, 7 years ago mess around with my ex wife terry while i was still married to the bitch. Jess u forgave him for that and he did it again
- Joseph Hays If u keep forgiving him hes just going to do it again... and again... ill b honest, when a man is forgiven for sumthing more than once he thinks its ok that ull forgive him so he does it over and over... ive done that
- Jesilyn Montgomery I don't know... the rollercoaster continues... its in a spinning loop. I dont know what Im feeling........
- Joseph Hays I think thats what he wants u to do is b in pain over it... cuz then he is in control of u and knows it
- Joseph Hays I never thought he was either. Seemed like a decent person to me. But obviously theres 2 sides to him
- Joseph Hays U know i just remembered the por also kept asking for pics of boobs as well... thats so fucked up. had to go back through the messages again...if i get back home in time tomorrow ill got to the library and try to print out the text messages, and then ill mail them to u. ive got ur address
- Jesilyn Montgomery i dont know why this is all happening. i never would have imagined he would do this to me. to tell the teuth its just too mu h to handel. this emotional rollercoaster keeps spinning. i am hurt and mad but i am still very much in love w him and yea... anyway... i guess what i want to say is this...
- Jesilyn Montgomery i am better off knowing whats going on but the name calling... im having trouble w it. i dont know why he is being this way but he wasnt always like this... he is so muchh different and no im not blind or dumb but im grieving and its not making me feel better to hear or c the name calling. i dont want ppl to think im not thankful for the support i am i really am and yes i want ppl to know the truth but plz understand it hurts when i see the name calling. he wasnt always an ass.
- Jesilyn Montgomery im not mad at u at all. im thankful for the info and the supportive convo. understand?
- Joseph Hays Ok. Lets all quit the names! Just inform jess of the situation without all the negativity. thank u
- Jesilyn Montgomery ty. i hope i didnt upset people im just having a really rough day.... i miss him and im hurting..
- Joseph Hays Im not upset... Its ok jess.... Ur in the grieving process... People need to understand that and if they dont then fck em... People that r ur friend should support u no matter what! I do...
- Jesilyn Montgomery ok well karin is almost done i cant text and drive ... i have to stop at a store on the way back and get some food and then hurry up and get keiths dads car back. i dont want them to think im not grateful because w out them i couldnt take karin to the dr.
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